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Great. I just spent the last 3 hours (1-4am) frantically searching for my high school diploma for my new job. If any of you know David, then you know that he keeps basically every piece of paper he's ever touched, so it wasn't really an easy task to find this diploma.
I did eventually find it (sitting on a shelf and NOT in one of the 12 boxes I searched through)... but that's not the point of this post.
In the process of finding the diploma, I also find countless memories related to Lee. I'm not sure I mentioned his name in the last post, but he's my friend from high school that just died.
Letters, pictures, journal entries, yearbook signings, cards, you name it. Almost every box I opened had a painful reminder of our fractured relationship, his moving away, and then his premature death. Yay. Another night of tears. This sucks. People should NOT die. And don't lecture me on overpopulation. I'm not in the mood. And I know that God has a plan. Yeah. Okay. I'm not in the mood for that either. I've never been one to plan myself, so I have a hard time accepting other people's plans - especially when they hurt like this.
Went to GA for two weeks and saw a few friends that I've really missed.
Got back from GA to find that one of my best friends in high school drowned in a river in Idaho the same week I was searching for him in GA.
In a desperate attempt to feel connected, I added every person I've ever met in my life to my facebook friends list. Don't laugh at me, it helped. Though I'm not sure some of those older ladies at church will know who I am.
Been playing Mafia Wars, Farmville, Resaurant City, Vampire Wars, Street Racing, and Pirates non-stop in order to avoid thinking about Lee's death.
Got visit taught tonight for the first time in 2 years. Need to pay that forward.
Been wanting to start a private spiritual/scripture-related journal to get more out of life and also to motivate me to read more.
Good friend got home from a mission, called me, and I lost her number immediately. That sucks. Would love to talk with her.
Found a new job at a daycare working with my cute little Nola.
Do me a favor please? If you have iTunes, can you visit my mix below and give it 5 stars??? That would be super! Also, if you like the songs, and you rate the mix for me, I'll send you a copy of this mix if you have kids.. or trouble sleeping.. or something =).
For the last 2 hours I have heard everyone at work commenting on how beautiful Farrah Fawcett was... how she just "invented beauty"...how she was the epitome of class, and how it's so hard to see such a beautiful creature wither away.
All of this is true, but...
For the last 2 hours I have also had to endure heartless comments about how good it is that Michael Jackson is dead. "Finally the world can have relief from him!" "Finally his kids can have a normal life." "I wouldn't be surprised if a U.F.O. came down to claim his body.. .hahahahhaha."
SHUT UP! I'm so SICK of it! It's as if every single person I work with wanted him to die. They are CELEBRATING IT! I can't understand how they refuse to see anything negative from his death! It's infuriating! I am so disappointed with the quality of their humanity; the idea that they can just brush a death off as a good thing just sickens me.
I will never look at them the same way again. A death is a death. Yes, he was weird, yes, Farrah was more beautiful, but was he worthless as a human being? Did he not give the world anything? I believe he gave music a hell of a lot that no one else had the creativity to give. It's as if everyone sees only the bad, and forgets all of his achievements in life. I just can't understand this. I don't get these people anymore.
I'm glad I'm changing jobs soon. At least that's something to look forward to.
